Seizing Shadows

"Seizing Shadows"

48x48" oil on canvas

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Before becoming a full-time artist, I spent nearly a decade as a nurse in trauma, critical care, and on the code blue team. I was on track to start CRNA school when COVID hit, and then, after a long and difficult fertility journey, I discovered I was finally pregnant. That moment changed everything for me. I left nursing to pursue my lifelong dream of becoming a full-time artist and opening my own gallery. Four years later, I’m proud to say my dream is thriving, but I’m still very much a nurse at heart.

Recently, life brought me back to the frontlines in unexpected ways…

A few weeks ago, while driving with my family, we passed a horrific accident. A young woman had just been struck by a garbage truck. She was lying alone on the road while bystanders frantically called 911. Without hesitation, I ran to the scene. As an experienced nurse, I recognized quickly that her wounds were fatal, and I could only offer her comfort and apply pressure to a head wound. She acknowledged my presence and responded well to my touch. The next day, I learned that she was only 13 years old, and an aspiring artist. Her name was Chloe. Today this day, I’m still processing this grief.

Just three weeks later, I drove by another traumatic scene—a young man in a motorcycle accident. Despite my initial hesitation after the last loss, I stopped to help. I was able to stabilize a severe injury and stop bleeding with a belt a kind stranger gave me as I searched for a tourniquet. This quick action helped save his life. I have since heard from family members that he is alive and well. 

In both instances, I had to quickly switch gears—shower, and then continue my very busy roles as a mom, business owner, and wife to a husband in a fast-growing startup.

I don’t know what’s written in the stars, but I truly believe I was meant to be there in those moments. Creating this piece was my way of healing and processing my emotions. This painting is a reminder to be kind, courageous, and live each day with gratitude. 💜